see you in my dreams
in less than 12 hours i will be on my way south toward santa cruz. after 8 months i am finally relinquishing my hold on my mother's remains, so that she can be reunited with her 2nd half. after consulting with a couple of friends, we decided on julia pfeiffer beach at big sur. anne is meeting me in santa cruz, then spending a weekend in the bay area to research her latest business venture. although i don't pray or acknowledge my mom daily, it's been strangely comforting having her around, so to speak. at times i think, would it matter if i kept a small ampoule of ashes? it is tempting. but her wish was to have us disperse all, to have no physical attachements. it was her wish to have the other half sprinkled among the trees, up high by the sea betwixt anne and me. it would be selfish if i were to revoke my promise. perhaps seeing the dust getting absorbed by the trees and earth would be cathartic and provide a closure––a sure release of the heart.
posted by plátano at 02:04
1 Comments:
I admire your mother's determination to provide release for you. In buddhism attachment is a root of suffering. By your act to release her ashes, you are allowing detachment in your mind and also in her sprite. In addition, it can provide nutrients to life in the ocean and plants on land. This form is sure a lot easier than what they do in Tibet, where they chop up the remains of the loved ones and feed it to vultures!
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